today is the last day we have to live without gilmore girls on netflix
what a time to be alive
the binge starts tomorrow
- but really sex my life
me as hell
*becomes educated on issues and learns not to use slurs* *literally everyone u come in contact with uses said slurs and u cringe*
abolish the concept of ‘passing’ & start accepting that theres no specific way any gender has to look to be valid
- halloween let's get spoopy
So, we ended up hanging out last night.
He’s always really fun to fuck — we can go from being buck-wild-nasty to each other to laughing in a split-second. Hanging out once every 2 weeks usually means there’s a lot of pent up sexual….rage? Yeah, I’ll go with rage — sexual rage that we attack each other with.
Ugh, it’s always such an ego boost to fuck him because he’s so frickin’ hot — ripped, bearded, and either shirtless or wearing a suit (THE DREAM). But he’s goofy and sweet when we’re hanging out alone or with his friends. It’s really an ideal situation (I’d like him to text me a little earlier in the day, but I can deal with that).
I am getting worried, though. We’ve been hanging out for 5 months. I just don’t want him to hit that panic stage that a lot of guys reach and start thinking that I want something to change. That is not the case. Our unspoken arrangement works for my lifestyle. But Chloe and Becca and I are trying to throw a Mad Men Halloween themed dinner party and I want to invite him. But that would be totally new territory for us (and for me). He hasn’t been to my new place yet. He hasn’t met any of my friends before. In fact, I’ve never introduced my friends to anyone that I’ve slept with. Not since…senior year?? But while it would be new territory, it doesn’t have to be a “step,” ya know? I want him to come, but I don’t want it to send his brain into, “PANIC, PANIC, STAGE-5 CLINGER, GET OUT NOW,” mode.
I’m over-thinking this. Why wouldn’t he want to see me dressed up as a 60’s housewife knowing that we can do some really kinky roleplay after??
Just be cool, Mac.
the good Matt
not the bad Matt